Today in Things (I Prolly Shouldn't Say)

Tonight's that concert that didn't work out… well, I know as well as you do that it can't always, but…

I sorta kinda really wish I was taking you to it tonight. Not… like… all four of us, or even you as an extra… Just, you and me. Date night. Maybe grab a nice dinner before, that sort of thing. Instead…

“I'm not sure I'm going to be into this show tonight, but it's alright… I'll have my phone. Do you think they'd be offended if I brought in a notebook to work on some writing?”

Yeah. Gonna be an exciting night for me, I can tell already. 🙄

sigh

You know, I guess I don't really have a good reason to believe this was you, and really it probably wasn't, but…

I realized that today marks a year since the “As the World Falls Down” letter. I think I wrote about this before… I didn't really see that letter at first, it slipped below my radar. It was the one from the next day, titled “So Lovely” that caught my eye. Not because I thought it was you… just, I liked it. A lot. I liked to pretend it was from you, but didn't suspect it really was. But, I did click on the OP's name, just to see if they had written anything else. And, there it was… “As the World Falls Down.” The letter had nothing to do with the title… but it could have been a reference to something I had posted on FB a couple months prior. A thing I had posted for you.

But it was the reply. I made some comment on “So Lovely”, and OP replied “Good eye, sniper! 👀” and I don't believe I've ever seen a more you comment on reddit before or since.

Then a third post that didn't seem to fit anymore, and then they were gone.

I don't suppose it's likely that it was you, but then I don't suppose it's likely that you would find me, either. If it was you… I hope you know that I liked it, very much. If it wasn't… I hope you don't mind that I liked it very much, lol. I re-read both it and “So Lovely” this afternoon. Whether you wrote the words or not, they still make me think of you… so very much. As if I needed help with that.

And I sure would love that other dimension the writer talked about… only I'd also ask you everything… while touching all of the parts of you that drive me crazy…

(which is literally every part of you, by the way…)

That photo from the other night… Gosh. In the end, we don't look like we're as close together as it felt like we were… which on balance might be a good thing, lol. But gosh… I am always so happy to add to the small but growing pile of photos of us together. It's pretty much all thanks to you, but… we make for a pretty photogenic couple if I do say so myself.

I hope you have a lovely evening, my love. I'll be missing you.

Yours,
♒️